Week 22

FML - I did it again, wrote a paragraph and guess what... Didn't save it. Yeah, I would do it again 

I guess I don't get off the topic but this seems to be a load of crap. 

1- yes    2- sweet    3- moody   4- yes

5- dry    6- right    7- no.  8- no change 

9- no    10- maintaining  11- stable  

12- GIRL   13- GIRL 

11 said girl and 2 said boy. 

Ok, fudge the holidays.. I need to go back to fruits, veggies and salads. I ate like a cow and am now feeling like one now. I just checked a calendar and it says I am now 6 months. 

I guess I miscalculated somewhere this month and thought I was as 5 months and 3 weeks but I guess I added a 5th week in two of those months. Well, I suck at math sooo it sounds possible. Damn, I REALLLYYYY have to get started on the baby shower invites, now more than ever. 

Now I can actually start feeling Oliver more on the outside as well as in. I can have Jaiden feel my stomach and he tells me he feels his baby brother. 

The closer the time comes the more we come into realization that.. Holy crap there will be a newborn here soon!! A crying and pooping machine!! Honestly, we are soooo not ready, but then again is anyone ever ready?? 

Oliver is as big as a papaya, averaging at 10.5" (we had to cut the papaya because it was a little too big). This week you are looking more like a newborn developing your eyes and lips more. You are expanding more and more and space is getting cramped. My belly button is officially an outtie (and I HATE IT).

From here on out I am supposed to gain 1/2 pound each week. Uh oh that means "9 more pounds" so I SHOULD end up at 155, I started fluctuating at 130-132 so if all is well I would gain 23-25 pounds total. STRICT diet from here on out, I can't do the same thing I did with Jaiden, I gained 60lbs with him!!! 

 

This week is New Years so I want to wish all my readers a HAPPY NEW YEAR. May 2015 bring you everything that 2014 forgot. Let's try to keep the resolutions this year lol. My resolution will be to keep my diet hahaha. Also, to continue to grow in my photographic career, to overcome fears and try to let go of the past. 

What a fail, I got champagne in my eye.  >_< 

Week 21

In 5 months I've gained 9lbs. I have to keep this up, 4 months left let's hope only 9 more pounds 😭.

I will be lying if I say it's getting easier, the more the weeks go by the harder it gets. Example, lately every time I blow my nose it's like playing a round of Russian roulette. Only pregnant women and mothers will know the embarrassment of blowing your nose or sneezing with a full bladder... Actually sometimes you didn't even know it was full. Now I'm not saying you fully go back to toddler days where you wet yourself completely but if you don't hold it or sit down you will have a tiny misshap. 

This week it's also getting harder and harder to breathe sometimes. I feel the little booger more and more and soon I'll be able to see Oliver completely breakdancing in there. He is already pushing downwards and making it extremely uncomfortable. 

Coming in averaging around 10.5" you are now as big as a pomegranate. 

Some women by now are feeling hart burn and indigestion, Braxton hicks, leaky boobs, itchy skin and getting stretch marks. Well, I already have stretch marks sooo yeah.. As for the other stuff I really haven't experienced any of that just yet, thank god. Only 1 more month and I'm in my last trimester. Agghh and then the real trouble comes.

Now here is where I should start thinking, after birth should I keep the blog going but instead of weekly updates on the little booger perhaps make it monthly. I can then print all these blogs and keep it in a scrapbook for later. 

Week 20

Hey guys, as most of you already know I have done my gender reveal. Not originally how I was going to announce it but since I've been having this whole gender depression I figured just to do something small. Again, I know everybody's just telling me be happy it's a healthy baby but as every other mother who has had the same gender twice it has had to have gone through your mind at one point or another…Will you love this child as much as your first. For the first three months I joked around with my husband saying how if it was a boy I don't think I would be able to go through with it because the love I have for my first boy it will never be replaced. I told him I felt as if I would treat the second one differently, I wouldn't give him as much love as I would for Jaiden. I won't tell you I'm sorry I feel this way because I know that my feelings are ok, it's perfectly normal to feel like this. 

My dreams continue to be weird and random this week. I am now getting small nose bleeds here and there. Also, once again another week where I am sick ... I was on bed rest for about 48 hours along with a liquid diet. God, that must've been the worst feeling so far. 

Christmas is coming!!! We just went this week to Disney and the lights were absolutely amazing. I love Disney at Christmas time.  Ok, I lied... I just love Disney at any time, except summer... Summer sucks. 

Here is Oliver's First picture at disney with the family... Hehehhe 

Along with a few other photos 

Pitstop at Universal. 

Considering I am the biggest Ariel fanatic, we allowed her to be our big reveal for the gender mystery. 

This week you are as big as a banana at 6.5". 

You are starting to swallow amniotic fluid. You are causing me itchy boobs and a massive shortness of breath. We are at a half way point at 20 weeks now and my belly is THANK GOD still small. Only 4 months left to gooooo, please I beg you not to wait till the full 10 months. 

Week 19

This week I don't feel like writing, the only thing is that I have been having the weirdest sci-fi dreams. I guess falling asleep to Guardians of the Galaxy did some damage. 

This week you are the size of a mango at 6 inches (ultra sound lady said you looked between 6-7 so I guess these fruit things are really true.) 

This week you are pretty much working in your five senses. 

Week 18

Week 18!! I already have 2 baby registries for the baby shower, Amazon and Babies R Us. I still have 11 weeks left for the baby shower and I think I am pretty much done with the big stuff. Now to make my invitations, well.. They are already made, I just need to print them out, put them together and send them out. 

Hmm, this week I was starting to worry a bit. The other day I had uncontrollable shakes,  my hands were shaking as if I was cold and my legs were trembling and not allowing me to walk correctly. Right now it's day two and I still don't feel 100%. Of course I had to Google it and it says that some women have labor shakes. What that means is that my body is currently low on blood sugar, perhaps taking out all the fatty foods and not going ham on chocolates and slushys is taking a toll. 

I am currently writing some of this blog while waiting for my next client, thank God she is late. I really needed this little break. From now on I'm going to have a stash of snacks in my car, even though I sound like a total fat ass I should have nuts, protein bars or just chips. Yes, I have water with me but now I'm starting to get hungry. 

Ughhh, I didn't save the other paragraph I wrote. I left my apps open and my psychoticness of closing all apps to save battery got the best of me. "/ sooo im keeping this one short because I can't remember what I wrote, not only fault of pregnancy brain but in general.. If I don't write it I won't remember it. 

This week you are the size of a sweet potato at 5.6". Hmm I wanna cut you up into pieces and deep fry you into julienne fries. 

You are punching, kicking, rolling and twisting. Yawning, hiccuping, sucking and swallowing. Here im reading that many women get backaches and this explains all my pain. Trouble sleeping, check! Insomnia is kicking in again, I was just getting used to knocking out at 9pm. 

Week 17

Starting the week off and honestly speaking I feel weak. I hate expressing my feelings and especially when it comes to matters of the heart. In the past 2 weeks I have been bottling up every emotion I can feel and I have come to a breaking point. I have looked up prenatal depression because I feel as I always had a minor case of depression and anxiety growing up, I just always hid it and didn't tell many. My anti depression became music and I would drown myself out into it, that was until I became of age and was introduced to vodka. God, I need a drink right about now... a beer... anything would suffice. I know I am not supposed to be stressing out, stress can lean towards anxiety and depression as well as miscarriage. I don't know why I am actually writing this out but for the very few that actually read all the crap I post, I Thank you. I know that there is someone out there who actually cares enough to read it and perhaps they felt the same way or went through what I was/is/or am going to. This week I have just about broken down and no one knows how much, I have written other blogs in which I have kept to myself or deleted.. still haven't put much consideration as to what I am going to do with this one.

I know that I have always lived a certain lifestyle, a "dream" as many would call it. Many say that I live in a fake world of fantasy... is that really such a bad thing? Wanting a perfect family growing up, wanting a lifestyle of pure happiness, wanting a stable career and a life where I can do what I love everyday. Wanting to come home to a big beautiful house where everyone in it is content, nurturing and loving. The world we live in now kinda sucks, living every day wondering what the next person will do to you. I actually lived every relationship thinking might as well hurt that person before they hurt me, runaway when things get tough and never let your guard down. Old habits kind of die hard. Well, honestly speaking I really don't want any comments on this blog. I don't want the "I am sorry, I know what your are going through" or the "get over it, thats the way life is" (yeah i get that a lot from family) "you have a beautiful family and you shouldnt feel this way for the baby". I get it, I'm depressed not stupid.. I know what I am supposed to be feeling but I can't, I just want these feelings to go away and thats why I am opening up. I am letting my feelings out so that way I can feel as if I am being heard, I am expressing myself to the universe because I want better. I don't want to live falling asleep nor waking up in tears. I don't want to have this conversation with any of you, this is the reason I am writing it and not speaking it. I don't want the constant reminder that I feel like this so please just let me be.

I know its not like any of my other chippy weekly blogs but I am writing these blogs to just write.


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Today I feel better .. so again. I don't wanna hear about it. 

Lets see this week little booger is stretching out to average 5.1'' which is supposed to be a size of an onion. Umm, I am not quite sure about this weeks size because all the onions I have ever seen here in Miami are quite small.

This week he/she is growing little by little and basically just putting on some weight. With that he/she is growing a stronger and thicker umbilical cord. Supposedly mothers should be showing by now and putting on some weight, especially second time mothers. This week I am 4 months and 1 week and thank god I have only gained 5 lbs. most women gain 5-10 lbs. by this time being that its almost 1/2 there. I have a little bump which continues to grow and it actually says as of this week my boobs are supposed to be getting itchy.. (they kind of are)

Week 16

It's starting to get cold! That means next week it will be hot again, yippee the joys of Miami. "/ 

I don't think you like the cold already, I feel you most when it's warm but I guess when I am cold you are too because you freeze up in there. Most probably ruled up into a little ball all warm and cozy in there. Ohh, and you must be thinking you are on a roller coaster in there, wondering how clumsy your mother is. I have already busted my butt twice in 2 weeks!! Once when we were cleaning the house I fell straight on my butt which hurt the most. Next was when I was running to the bathroom because you don't allow me to hold my bladder anymore, slipped at the curve ate the corner wall and luckily landed on my knees. I'm not usually this clumsy!! I am really good at keeping my balance but you have me on the edge these days. 

This week you have seriously surprised me with your growth. You are getting to be as big as an avocado ranging at 4.6 inches. 

I am currently 4 months now, and you are beginning to hear my voice. Oh boy, I am sorry for all the things you are hearing so early but this is a crazy family sooo might as well get used to it. You are starting to grow hair, eyelashes and eyebrows. Here is the week that most pregnant women start feeling their babies. You have given me ENORMOUS boobs and Pregnancy Brain as most women like to call it. 

Week 15

Week 15 wooowwww next week that's it 4 months. Holy crap again, this has flown by!! It's crazy I keep feeling the little booger more and more each day. For the past 2 days it's been kicking or stretching and it's really bothering me, I didn't feel it this fast with Jaiden. 

I've been pretty much down this whole week, a little depression mode. We were supposed to have a gender reveal party and for certain reasons it didn't happen. I also have been non-stop working which is GREAT but i haven't had time to prepare anything. We will be waiting until our next appointment for final confirmation on gender before proceeding. I know you guys are just waiting for me to post it as much as I'm waiting to figure out what the heck it is. 

Only 3 months left for the baby shower, yes, I'm already planning. I can't invite 1/2 the ppl I want to... I already have a list that I am trying to cut down to 100 but I think it's staying at 115. Invites are ready to be printed and put together and the registry is 1/2 done. 

Hmm this week we are as big as a Navel Orange. 

I can feel you squirming around in there even though most pregnancies don't quite feel anything just yet. You might have already started hiccuping and you can now move all your limbs. Holy moly yes you can, I feel it every time you stretch!! 

Week 14

Woohoo!! Second Trimester.. 

November 9th at 1:06pm I called Ricky to feel my stomach. He even said he felt something!! I've been feeling the little booger for a while now but finally Ricky was able to partake in the feeling. Jaiden tried to feel and by then the feeling stopped, he asked me if its trying to get out..lol. 

This week we had a little trip to CT. for my cousins wedding in NJ. We also had a little "family photoshoot" in NY. 

We had an amazing time at my cousins wedding. 

As well as at my sisters house 

Sorry, going photo overload this week. We had a lot of amazing moments captured :) 

I have also been extremely busy with my Christmas mini sessions that I haven't had time to take my 14th week photo. Since the studio is set up like a bed I'm going to have to improvise with another location. Well, I have been feeling better lately but when it's a little too much I still kind've black out. 

Next week we will be hosting a GENDER REVEAL party for the family, so I hope no one posts any photos just yet. I want to keep you guys in suspense for a little bit longer.

I'm counting the days left!! 4 weeks left until we go to Disney for the 

             Very Mery Christmas 

💚❤️💚❤️💚 🎄🎅 💚❤️💚❤️💚

Hopefully I am showing just a little bit more because damn skippy I will be trying to take a few maternity pictures in front of MY castle. Yes, I claimed that castle when I was younger. Lol. 

Well, this week you have grown up to 3.4 inches and you're the size of an average lemon (not a miami lemon though lol) 

You are probably sucking your thumb as well as wiggling your toes and fingers. Because your vital organs are growing and you can finally start peeing this might be a reason I am now EVEN MORE constant in the bathroom. Trust me I know this is just the beginning. 

Week 13

Ok, goodbye old jeans and hello dresses and leggings! Cruel Cruel pregnancy, I know I have a miracle growing in me but how many of you just stand in front of the mirror wishing you could magically extend that zipper section so your pants can fit for a bit longer. When we get to maybe 5 months it starts looking cute, right now it just looks like a tiny little gut. If my jeans or shorts are tight and I am wearing them for too long... omg I feel like my bladder is going to explode and pee on myself. This week the nausea continues but I can finally puke, its horrible but at least when I get it out I start feeling better.

I can NOT wait for winter to get here already!!! Not just because of the heat and the shortness of breath but more for the SUPER cute outfits I just bought... Yes, the outfits are for this weekend when I go to Connecticut but I can actually picture my big belly in those dresses.

Another psychotic move of mine is starting my registry early. I know myself... I will forget later on. At least now I get the big things out of the way. I am doing 3 registries, this way I look for the best prices in each.

Babies R US, Burlington Coat Factory & Online at Amazon.  http://www.amazon.com/registry/baby/HEA4J3MEQI7Z

I need to tell everyone that if they find these items anywhere cheaper to go for it and let me know so I can take it off the list. (its my second time around who cares for surprises.. also last time i was constantly on the list checking what was bought.. hahaha no secrets)

Is it bad that I am already wanting to nest, I am driving my hubby crazy!! I want the room cleaned and painted already.. but before the painting i want the window replaced.. ummm can I open a go fund me for my psychoticness of wanting a perfect nursery this time around?? F YOU PINTEREST!!! (O_O) hehe.. sorry. Anyways my nursery color of choice will be gray and white and the accent colors will be pink and blue.

Right when I thought the nausea was over, it kicks right back in. One day it's good and the next it's bad again. I was making pasta for dinner and I ended up not eating. ._. The smell just made me want to throw up, it was horrible I was so hungry. I cut me up some apple slices and went back to bed. 

This week you are as big as a peach averaging 2.9 inches. 

You are forming your vocal cords meaning they will be ready by the time you get here... Screaming and crying O_O I am not sure I'm ready for that again. You already have fingerprints and as creepy as it sounds your intestines are moving from the umbilical cord into your body. 

 

Week 12

Final Week Of My First Trimester! 

Wow, this went by really fast!! I can't believe it I am already 3 months! Im sorry, its weird saying that and typing it and reading it over is even crazier. Hmm, 3 months. This weeks weather was so gloomy.. :( rained all week. 

I am just getting anxious now, I want to know what it is. Just a few days ago I went to get a sonogram done, trying to cheat and get the gender earlier. They told us a few things but it's not 100% certain, 3 more weeks to find out for sure if it's a boy or girl. Then you guys just have to wait until the gender reveal. 

Here is the little booger at 11 weeks and 3 days. The woman who did the sonogram said everything looks absolutely perfect. Little booger acted just as expected. He/She was moving like crazy, wasn't allowing us to get a clear view for more than 2-3 seconds. 

The lady doing the X-rays just kept laughing saying he/she was going to be a handful. Also, little booger is already camera shy, they tried to get a face shot but he/she kept putting his/her hands in his/her face. 

Here is my actual appointment for my 12th week. Healthy as can be and the man doing the sonogram said he'd give my Due Date an estimate of May 1st. 

I'm sorry but that photo seriously looks like alien species. Little Booger I need to change your nickname lol. Alien Child 

At 12 weeks you are the size of a plum averaging 2 inches. 

Developing reflexes and even though they say I can't feel you I actually think I can. Starting to move your fingers and toes fast now... Just as fast as your brain is developing or so I read. 

Well... I cant find a plum but my hubby found something jut as good. A Kiwi. 

              Rainy week = Rainy Pic 

Week 11

Nothing big this week, spent most of it planning a surprise party for my mom. I just keep noticing that the more strenuous the situation the more weak I am starting to feel. The black outs are starting to get better, starting to control it a bit more. If I start feeling like my head is getting cloudy or even a little nauseous I sit or lay down, try breathing through my mouth and it actually helps. Before I would get light headed easily and fall to the ground while my vision goes black. I momentarily fell asleep next to the toilet in one of these moments waiting to throw up. I'm still waiting to feel this amazing and spiritual connection... "/ 

Call me crazy but I have been feeling little bubbles in there, I know it's too early to feel anything just yet but I could've sworn I did. Either I had to pass gas and bubbles were building up or little boogers rapid movements in there is causing bubbles. 

Reading up on what is to expect this week, said something about a babymoon. I haven't ever heard about this before but it read:

 

Planning a Babymoon

For expectant parents, a babymoon is essentially one last kid-less hurrah before your new roomie moves in. Think you could use one? 

Well, we will be going to CT soon but not for full relaxation. My cousin is getting married, so that saturday is already fully planned. I am extremely excited to see my family ☺️🎉. Sunday will be up to my older sister, touring CT and seeing the changing of the leaves will be absolutely stunning!! Monday will be short, we have the morning but we will be back that night. Can't wait to take Jaiden some pictures up there. Counting down, 2 weeks left!! (0_0) I need to buy some thermals, this miami girl can't stand the cold and as you will see in this weeks picture... Belly is popping, I am no longer wearing my size 4 jeans, and need to start looking for looser clothing. I have so far gained 3-5 pounds (I fluctuate) in these .. Oh my gosh NEXT WEEK IS 3 MONTHS!! 

Starting to grow faster this week, about the size of a lime and averaging about 1.6 inches and 0.25 ounces. 

Supposedly this week you are moving around a lot. Her/his skin is currently see-through but is looking more like a baby.. I think it looks like an alien. Now his/her fingers and toes are fully formed. Hair, tooth buds and finger nails are being formed. :)

10 Weeks

Ughh, my 9th week I was sick and laying in bed. With all these inventions and medical advancements I am surprised they haven't come up with a medicine that can help treat pregnant women with a cold. We can hover a car in the air or make it turn into a boat but godforbid trying to help a fat girl who's coughing her lungs out. We all know Tylenol and Robitussin DM only work so much, antibiotics are always needed. That's it.. If they can pour ice on their heads and donate for a medical condition then lady's lets shake our pregnant bellys for antibiotics. Lol. 

This week is yet another week I'm surprised divorce papers aren't being served. Second pregnancy and it's just like the first.. Sometimes everything my husband says irritates me :( it's so sad that I feel this way, I hear many pregnant women feel the same. I can go from babe lets cuddle to ... OMG just go watch your shows and leave me alone. 

On the other hand, Jaiden and I are getting along a lot more. It's like we are bonding all over again. While walking the isles of Marshalls the other day he walks backwards in front of me and starts kissing my stomach. Not to mention when he first found out I was pregnant he made me buy the baby some clothes. He tried going for pink and blue because ofcourse to him im having both. We settled on some white sleeping onsies, cute ones with a teddy bear on its butt and stuff like that. 

This week you're as big as a Prune, about 1.2 inches and 0.14 ounces. 

Your vital organs are starting to function and your fingernails are starting to grow. 

Week 9

All I want to do is sleep, it's like I can take a nap at whatever time of the day. Sweeping my house gets me breathing like if I just ran, in my case, a block. I don't know how I am going to continue taking pictures if I keep up this way, hopefully it's just a first trimester thing. 

This time around I like to sleep on my right side, I read an old wives tale about how baby genders will make you preference your sleeping side. With jaiden I kicked my husband out of his side of the bed because I preferred the left side... and face it I am kind of closterphobic so I don't like anything near my face or I feel as if I'm being suffocated. With this feeling I have to be at whatever side of the bed I feel most comfortable, which is usually my right side. I am happy to say so far I have been loyal to my side of the bed! The old wives tale speaks of boys making their mothers prefer their left side (which happened to me) and girls make us prefer our right side. Hmmmm can you imagine a mini me running around?? My entire family is hoping for a girl. Oddly, I never thought I wanted one but this pregnancy it's all I can think of. With Jaiden I said it from the very beginning its a boy and his name is Jaiden. There was no changing my mind. This time around i keep thinking of a certain girl name... You'll have to wait till the gender reveal to find out what it is ;) 

I have taken a craving to tomatoes this week. Something I used to love growing up and since I was maybe 20 havent done since. Just as is, maybe I'll slice them so I can sprinkle salt over them but I just like the juices that come from them whole. Tomatoes are extremely good for your skin in which I need because this little booger has me braking out like if I'm going through puberty. (0_0) I never went through this as a teen.. Of course it would happen now. Another wives tale says girls steal your beauty and cause pimples and blotches. I swear little booger if you are a girl and you give me any blotches on my face you won't shave your legs until graduation!! Haha. 

Any minute my husband should either punch me or throw me over a cliff. I know my attitude is going from 0-60 (nothing new) but now even more because of smells. I smell EVERYTHING!! Cleaning supplies are seriously killing me, I wanted to sleep in the car the other night. It was intolerable but then again... so was I. Driving passed I think a park.. I don't know but I mentioned smelling green mangos, which was off because the season is gone. I have always had a good sense of sight and smell, sight is the same but smell.. Omg it's insane. Imagine if my sight can improve also, I'll start seeing sounds or even better see through walls. Hahha. 

This week little booger is the size of an Olive, 0.9 inches. 

She/He is no longer an embryo but is now an actual fetus. Heartbeat can now start to be heard, my next appointment is Oct 20 I'll be sure to hear it then. 

Ps. Constipation sucks!! I almost cried because my husband interrupted me once when I was FINALLY taking a crap. 

Preggo Week 8

Any woman who ever said they loved their maternity phase has to be a psychotic person, or a very lucky woman.  Unfortunately, second time around I'm just as unhappy as the first. Actually, this time is worse. First time around I was throwing up for 9 months. This time I am nauseous the entire time, dizzy, lightheaded and blackout. The joys of motherhood I tell you, I swear this little jerk better turn out cute. 

Many people foresaw my future and said I was having twins. Kind of nerve wrecking yet exciting, my son Jaiden (age 5) has been wanting a sibling for quite some time. Actually, now he wants both brother and sister. Thinking about the words of many and seeing twins we thought hey maybe you'll get your wish. What ever comes out, this time has to be the last time I give birth, I don't know how I would ever want to go through this again.. Even this second time around, what was I thinking. 

My first OBGYN appointment was this week I was extremely excited for this. Oh wait, it gets better, it landed on the day Jaiden had no class, he is able to go also. Talk about exciting, seeing his baby brother or sister or who knows maybe both for the first time. Unfortunately, only one blob was found. Jaiden wasn't too thrilled & honestly, neither were we. But on the bright side we saw the little booger just floating around in there. 

One of my friends made me laugh, once I posted I was 8 weeks he backtracked on my Instagram and found out 8 weeks ago was National Tequila Day. To my surprise the due date is officially May 5... great Cinco de Mayo. Can this get anymore cliche?? Lol, no if it's a boy I'm not naming him Jose or as another friend mentioned first name Pat middle name Ron. 

Here goes my journey, only 31 weeks left. 

Each week I will post how big the baby is. Since I started blogging at almost 9 here are week 7 & 8 :) 

Booger is as big as a blueberry here, 0.51 inches and starting to sprout. 

Developing kidneys and starting to form arm and leg joints. 

Booger is as big as a raspberry this week, 0.63 inches. 

This week you are starting to wiggle like crazy but I can't feel you just yet. Fingers and toes are still webbed but slowly developing. Tail is starting to go away, haha at one point we have tails like a tadpole. 

Oh So Natural, some of 2014 favs.